September Gets crazier!
I am going to be brutally honest with all of you in this blog! September makes me want to stab my eyes out! Just when I think it can’t get any busier, it does! Somehow, every year, I make it through September!
Let’s start back in July! My kids were off of school and we were having a great summer! However, despite happy July, I was going to bed worrying every single night! I knew September was going to bring a ton of changes and I was finding myself holding my breath thinking about it! Wouldn’t it be nice if I could just learn to go with the flow!
When September 5, 2017 rolls around, my ten year old son Max was going to start middle school! He was leaving his elementary school bubble and stepping into a new world! I was mostly excited for him! I knew that he was ready for a new change! Change is exciting and change is also scary to me! My mind wasn’t consumed with worry for Max, it was with another one of my children!!
Ella was starting third grade and Lillie was going to be starting kindergarten! Max and Ella were both well over 5 when I sent them to kindergarten! I was sending my baby to kindergarten at 4 years old! Everyone had an opinion whether we should send her to kindergarten or not! I kept telling myself to send her! I kept convincing myself that she would be fine! She turns 5 on October 2! That is only a month after school starts I would tell myself! Let’s be honest here….I was so worried! Was I making the right decision? The bottom line is there isn’t a right or wrong decision about sending Lillie to kindergarten! There is just a decision and I decided to send her! Again, I was holding my breath!
I had a wonderful summer but I spent a lot of time worrying about Lillie! She went to universal pre kindergarten last year and school was only 2 and a half hours a day! I couldn’t imagine how she was going to do 6 hours a day! She was so used to being with me! How was she going to do without me all day? She is my baby! That alone makes it so much harder to send Lillie to kindergarten!
I decided to leave my job to stay home with my children! I devoted 10 years to staying home with them! My whole world was about to change! My career was ending as I saw it! I spent many days crying! Even if I continued to be a stay at home mom, it was going to be very different! I don’t have any more babies and I was grieving! I had so many friends tell me to have another baby! I love babies! I wanted four babies! After three c sections I couldn’t get myself to go through another one! My husband was so done having babies! There was no use in convincing him because in my heart of hearts I was done too and I didn’t want to be!
September 5 came like it does every year! Max and Ella did such a great job getting Lillie excited for school! I sent Max off to middle school excited! I sent Ella off excited and I even sent Lillie off to school excited! I did a wonderful acting job and left my girls at school happy! I would now hold my breath until I picked up Lillie! How was this going to go?
I am writing this on September 16! I feel this huge sense of relief! Max is getting the hang of middle school and Ella and Lillie are loving school!!!!! I can’t even believe this! Lillie loves kindergarten! Do you have any idea how wonderful it is to say those words! Lillie LOVES kindergarten!!!!!
As parents, you know there are a million things to do! You know you have lists that are a mile long! You know once one list is finished another one quickly emerges!! Let’s just say that when the kids go to school I have had no trouble adjusting to not having kids at home during the day! Another shocker for me!
When you take on a job you never realize how much work it will be! This is something that I have come to learn! When I took on the membership job at my girls school, I had no clue what I was in store for! September has gotten significantly crazier! Let’s throw in activities for all three kids, three different school open houses, two Jewish holidays, and company for 8 days!
So, when you ask me what I am doing with my free time, I haven’t found any yet! However, I am hopeful for October! When I find some free time, I will let you know what I do.